Tuesday, December 26, 2006

Whereas some find beauty in sunsets, others in those who take them..



and yet, there is something to be said about chasing sunsets...


Rose Valley, Cappadocia

Mosques in Mardin, Turkey

Beautiful and extremely elusive.. just like some people..


Sometimes, you can capture fleeting moments of time..


I once thought that it would be exciting to travel the world, and compared to some who've never moved from the front of their tv I have. However, interestingly enough you never seem to let go of old baggage! You think you've changed and grown but somewhere deep down inside everything that you've been hiding from just turns around finds you again. AND yes you can make the same mistake twice! Looking back now, you think oh I should have..and think of five hundred things you would have done differently..what a shame that you can't do that for the future as well. I never minded my age up until now but now I find myself thinking yes but..times flying..(and damn-I need to stop!) instead of just leaping forward I've been procrastinating where to go for months. The one place I'd like to go is not possible..due to delicate reasons as well as the small thing as work permits. So I've finally decided on San Francisco it always sounded interesting..it also happens to have a university with a medieval dept!!! So for the present leaving all those wonderful plans of living in Europe aside, for the cold practicalities of life. Which according to some people I have long neglected and need to rectify-as well as probably "act my age" whatever that may be??? But in my defense I'd like to add that it was only for the past 5 years (where I studied )that I've been a burden on my family...okay its a bit late in life, and I would warn people out there against studying English Lit, as there isn't much work out there, especially if you don't quite like teaching..and possibly doing an MA in Viking and Medieval Studies wasn't quite the thing to earn you money as well, (but at least the tuition was free)...and I enjoyed it! If there is anything to say for actually enjoying what you do then, I freely admit I do, enough to want to do more research, but the damn practicalities of life seem to intrude..So if I've learned anything at this ripe age ( i wont say old!) is that timing does make a difference, but some things are just meant to be I guess..you know destiny and all that. I just wish it would be a bit easier to decipher sometimes! and if it decides to get your heart involved I wish it didn't have such a sick sense of humour. At times it seems like the school bully, dangling just the bit of chocolate that you want but holding it up just high enough so that you can't possibly reach it!


Despite all this my friends I seriously do wish us all- Happiness, Health, and Peace of Mind in all we do for 2007!

p.s. Thanks to the person who left the comment that I must have made a lot of friends, I hadn't thought of it that way, and it cheered me up.